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| Tuesday, February 10th, 2009 | | 3:25 am |
Things to be..
I tend to wonder sometimes, about whether or not I would be happier not being in the place where I live. I come to that mostly out of boredom, usually. I've considered a great many places to move to, and I always come to the same conclusion, as to why I've not moved away. there is nothing I can't do here, that I could do somewhere else. now, recently, I find this becoming more and more untrue. I like Alaska, I love the fact it is frickin' cold in the winter, pleasantly warm in the summer, and its so damned isolated from the rest of the American populace. Whom, I tend to believe to be greedy, uncaring, ignorant and generally docile fools. Unfortunately, I'm finding the population of Alaska, slowly but surely, becoming the same way. I find that very disheartening. Alaskans, whether or not they still live here, are tough, strong, quick-minded, and determined people. Willing to go 10 miles up the road, on foot, just to find and hang out with the friend that needs them. Willing to go out into the woods, carve out the soil by hand, build a hut, and hunt for their daily meal, and like the fact that this is what must be done to own themselves and their slice of life. In this area, at least, I'm finding more and more, the amenities of modern society are creeping their way into the local mindset, and the older ways of life are slowly being pushed into obsolescence. I can't stand this fact. Don't get me wrong. The fact that I'm on a computer, using it as a way to keep in touch and vent to the world, sometimes sickens me. I do use one though, because I like to learn. I like to keep in contact. I enjoy humanly and social interactions. I have a severe need for these things. I am capable of doing it without a computer, its just a bit harder. My only saving grace, I think, is the fact I don't rely on it solely for those two things. I do go out and interact with my friends. I go meet new people at the bar, or at work, or simply being somewhere. I digress though. The mentality that current locals have, especially within my generation and the younger ones, is that the current fashions, the current musics, the current cars, phones, i(insert product name here) must be bought, worn, driven, or blasted. People are losing the thing that set them apart here. Dress for comfort, ease of movement, and in the winter, for warmth. Be damned what you think about the style that I have, be damned what you think about my body shape, and be damned what you think about what works for me. I'm not saying that people have to not care. I'm saying that Alaskans never followed the current trends because we used to be disconnected enough that we had to make our own. The important things are being bought out by the corporations, sold to us on television, shoved down our throats on the internet, and pummeled into our ears on the radio. The fact that we have a governor that was in the world spotlight for a number of months, who neglected her own very important job, to try for more power greedily, doesn't lend itself to the Alaskan way. Yes, life is harder in Alaska, but isn't that the point? I'm not saying it has to always be hard, but I am saying that it should never be easy for the population to forget the trials, battles, hardships, and sacrifices that have brought about the local amenities. again, I digress. what I'm getting at, is that I liked living here because people had to be generally smarter to survive, and if not street-smart, then educated so that they could get by. this is no longer the case. the people here have become like the rest of the sheep in America and don't deserve the beauty that is Alaska. hell. I don't deserve it! it is for that reason that I'm beginning to seriously consider leaving and never coming back. the problem is I have no idea where the hell I should go. I want to build a different society, because the one I'm forced to interact with is not one I want, or accept. Nor do I have to accept it. so... when I figure out where to start it, you'll KNOW where to find me. Current Mood:  boredCurrent Music: Blue Scholars - Bayani | | Thursday, January 15th, 2009 | | 11:57 pm |
more than over a year.
I, am Owen. It has been over a year since I have used this journal, and because I've not been keeping my thoughts, I've lost track of myself. Over time, it becomes extremely easy to do, especially when life throws lots and lots of little intricate detailed distractions at you, and then multiple complicated large ones. Tackling the things that I feel I need to, isn't always easy for me. Especially when fear or anxiety is involved with the other emotions of the moment. So, looking back and seeing where I was a over a year ago, might be a good thing. Remember where I come from. In my opinion, this is the secret of life: Think. Speak. Share. Love. Never be afraid to do these things. They seem simple, but there are so many times in my life where I wanted to do these things, be honest and pure about them, and I failed. I failed because I have fears, and anxieties that drove me to them. Those are not bad things in and of themselves. They are ways for me to see a possible solution to a problem, but it might not be the best solution, when only those two things, or pain, drive me to solve the problem. Now, there were also times where I straight simply forgot these four things. I neglected to do them, and found myself running blindly into brick walls instead of making progress toward my goals. When I don't think, everything becomes wisps of cloth to be plowed through and conquered, and it takes me a few times of smashing my face into the wall before I stop for a moment to recognize it for what it is. So, as a promise to myself, I will be remembering these things to the best of my ability, and I will not be letting fear, anxiety, and pain drive me to them. I go to them freely and use these tools to build my own self, my own society, and my own world from the ashes and rubble of my self, and generally, destructive past. I. Am. Owen. Current Mood:  okay | | Wednesday, July 11th, 2007 | | 1:06 am |
another, yet different test.
Career Inventory Test Results | Extroversion | ||||||||||||||| | 50% | | Emotional Stability | |||||||||||||||||| | 56% | | Orderliness | ||||||||| | 26% | | Altruism | |||||||||||||||||| | 56% | | Inquisitiveness | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 66% | | You are an Architect, possible professions include - strategic planning, writer, staff development, lawyer, architect, software designer, financial analyst, college professor, photographer, logician, artist, systems analyst, neurologist, physicist, psychologist, research/development specialist, computer programmer, data base manager, chemist, biologist, investigator. | | Take Free Career Test personality tests by similarminds.com ---------------------------------------- ------------------------- yup... Current Mood:  drained | | Monday, July 9th, 2007 | | 11:19 pm |
me and a career for the id
well, I took this test, and this was the answer.. someone tell me if any of it rings true. ---------------------------------------- ------------ http://quiz.ivillage.co.uk/uk_work/tests/career.htm---------------------------------------- ------------ What career will suit your personality? This description is a generalisation. You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are: Artist Historian Banker Novelist University Professor Photographer Vet Paralegal Graphic Designer Online Content Developer Webmaster Producer Managing Director Nutritionist Advertising Nursing You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private. You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses. You like to be deeply involved in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others and protect their feelings. You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language. You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don't like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open. ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------- does any of that sound right? to me, it kinda does.. but I think I want a second(or third) opinion. too bad you need a degree(or three) to be a professor.... -Owen Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: -- | | Saturday, June 9th, 2007 | | 6:46 pm |
Bluarrg!*
well, I'm alive. just lettin you know.. I've still got me ear, though I nearly lost it to a slightly drunken sado-masachistic woman whose pants I unintentionally ripped when I wrestled my poking-stick away from her at the campfire when she tried to bite it off, my ear that is. (yes, it was an actual stick. I just like putting it that way for the humor.) anyway, the band is a three piece. we still rock, but I'm slowly taking up backing vocals. those of you that have tried to have a conversation with me whilst I'm playing, know, that I cant speak and play at the same time. but I'm still doin' it. I'm once again the busiest unemployed fuck I know... save today, of course. that may change with the winds. I did a brief stint at Kenai River Nursery, playing in the dirt and planting things in said dirt. it was fun and a swell!, learning experience. they payed me worse than dirt wages, for hard prison-like labour, though. but it wasn't bad. it put me into shape. and let me have some fun. moving on though, I'm broke. so, odd jobs to supplement until I find a decent opportunity. that all said, I'm going back to my corner of the world.... though a corner implies there are walls meeting... and yet I see nothing but open paths. heh. have fun. -Owen Current Mood:  optimistic | | Wednesday, March 21st, 2007 | | 2:09 pm |
St. Patrick's day.
well, our concert was a hit... I guess. it was in a little rinky-dink hippy store called Maggy's. we convinced nearly 90 people to come and pay for the show, and it more than that were actually there, because some of our friend's helped out and got in free. but it was good. we played with a band by the name of "Your Mom's Balls" which is an interesting name.. they kinda pulled together their set and band at the last second and played about six songs. which is cool. we did something like nineteen or twenty. made some money off of it.. not a lot but a bit. had to put Maggy's back together the next day, and boy did that suck. Maggy was cool though. neat ole' hippy lady. but the day before the show, I strained my neck moving the pieces of the stage. carrying pallets, and boards through 2 - 3 feet of snow, I moved wrong. one minute I was fine. set down the pallet I was carrying, turned around, and was in pain. no pop, no grind, no initial pain.. just creeped up out of nowhere. I couldn't move friday night, barely slept due to the pain. but, I did the show anyway. and then came in on sunday to help put together the store. I think honestly, that the best thing to have done was keep moving. holding still and stiff just seemed to make it worse. I'm still a bit sore even now, but I've most of my movement back. I've been rubbing an arnica ointment on it, and that has helped tremendously. so here we are, planning to do another show soon, having some problems, but not too many, and (I'd like to think) we have a solid fan base of people that have seen us multiple times and will spread the word. anyway.. just thought I'd mention whats been going on. sorry about not telling everyone about it, was a bit busy trying to make it happen. it was short notice after all. I think we had two maybe three weeks. tops. yup. -Owen Current Mood: soreCurrent Music: gibberish..... | | Wednesday, February 14th, 2007 | | 11:25 am |
not usual..
well, out of a certain misguided(maybe) respect for a friend of mine I don't usually celebrate Valentine's.. which for a lot of gals is a relationship kicker. but, this year I have been forced to.. not by my girl, but by my band. yeah... funny that... so.. a nice dinner, a flower(one single flower), and maybe some wine.. haven't decided yet. but.. I'm not lookin foreward to the headache of it. what goes with pork? anyway... this is just not my usual. blah. -Owen Current Mood: apathetic | | Wednesday, January 31st, 2007 | | 12:48 pm |
und shiza!
well, I took this test... and one of my worst fears is manifest.... Your results: You are Superman| Superman |
| 95% |
| Spider-Man |
| 90% |
| Robin |
| 90% |
| The Flash |
| 85% |
| Green Lantern |
| 85% |
| Wonder Woman |
| 80% |
| Supergirl |
| 75% |
| Hulk |
| 75% |
| Batman |
| 55% |
| Catwoman |
| 50% |
| Iron Man |
| 45% |
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You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.
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Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...yeah... not exactly what I thought I wanted... | | Saturday, January 27th, 2007 | | 3:15 pm |
*URK!* ...and my troubled mind...
well.. I've gotten myself into another rut.. I hate trudging this mud.. and my planning skills are all but nill. yes, I'm not going anywhere with this. they say, that a strong heart is all you need. and they say, that, with a strong heart your dreams are fulfilled. well that may be so... what of things that attempt to eat away at ones heart? will there not eventually be a sapping of this strength? is there a way to bolster the heart, and guard one's self from these leechings? the answer is, yes. surround yourself with those you care about. dedicate youself to what you want, and need. not to what others think or expect. be true to yourself and to those around you no matter the situations. have faith in those around you and courage in your abilities. these words stick in my throat. easy to see, easy to say.... ever so hard to live. I keep my mouth shut, speaking very seldom except to let out the odd bit of insanity or the occasional nugget of wisdom. casting my pearls to those I would hope not be swine. if more is needed, then let my actions be my words. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, though, if I expect better of others then I must expect better of me. and lately I have been very, very short of that. far shorter than my liking. no more thinking. no more reasoning. no more planning. now I NEED, WANT, and MUST simply DO. and there is my shortness. I'm at a loss as to what. no hints. its my puzzle. -Owen Current Mood:  confused | | Wednesday, November 29th, 2006 | | 9:08 pm |
if it got worse....and it will.
well, I've had about the worst month of my life, save a few past ones.. and I get this feeling that it will get worse. but you know, I'm actually doing much better off than a lot of people. even though this is not what I wanted. well.. I have no job anymore. after the two weeks of my truck being a bitch and being frozen, ie- not starting, I couldn't go to work. I suppose I could have found other ways to work, but in truth, I didn't really want the job. thats not why I'm upset with not having a job. I'll get to that in a minute... let me simply relay how tuesday november 28 started for me. on my way to go pick up Athena from work at around 2am, I get pulled over by a cop. granted he didn't give me a ticket, but I still don't like getting pulled over. he tells me I have a tail-light out. no big deal. I pick up athena, and head home. I have to stay up all night, because I have school in the morning. so.. I bake a pie and drink some coffee, and play a video game. not so bad. well, I go to school, which was pretty cool. after school I do some things, and get minorly annoyed when someone asks me to come over and take them somewhere, and I go over, we don't end up leaving, and I waste about an hour of my time. also not so bad. just slightly annoying. I go pick up a battery from my dad's work that he purchased so I could replace the one in Athena's car, and I go head out north so I can do it. well, I thought there were tools out there, but no, they were in sophie's truck. that's fine, her tools, her perrogative. so I take athena to work, and go to my dad's to try and get in a nap, by this point I'd been up 28 hours.. not so bad, except I was starting to drift off at the wheel. not cool. at my dad's I'm attempting to nap, yet he keeps talkin to me, and the tv is fuckin blaring. so I finally slip into sleep at 8pm or so and I get woken up by dad so that I can go pick up Lowell so we can go jam, at around 9pm. yay, I got a one hour nap. go pick up lowell head over to carrs to meet someone he was auditioning to be our new guitarist. neat. we go out north. band is cool. jamming is fun. the dude(shane) picks up on stuff really quick. good. well, that all ends, I'm driving back into town to drop lowell off, and my truck begins to make some ultra funny noises. well, it starts to lose power, and the noise of the engine becomes louder and louder, until we are passing agrium, and then I hear this loud POP! and a klang klang-itty clink noise. so I throw it into neutral and kill the engine and coast into tesoro. by this time I had already deduced that I was out of oil. my gauge told me so. so I'm just praying that the engine didn't seize when I had turned it off. I put a gallon of oil into it, and pray it will start. well it didn't at first. we sat there in the parking lot of tesoro about 45 minutes waiting for the engine to cool and the oil I put into it to cycle through. finally it starts, and this loud clang clang noise is there. well, it runs.. but not well. I didn't want to call my dad at 3am so, I limped it ever so slowly to the house out north so I take athena's car into town.. everything is fine after that. thats why I'm not happy that I have no job. I'm not sure exactly what I've blown in the engine, but I blew something. I'm gonna have to tear apart the engine just to find out what it is, replace it, and then put the engine back together. and this could be as simple of a fix as $40, or as expensive as $600. wont know till I get it into the garage, and get it torn apart. its out north. dad's garage is in town.. 10 miles away.. I really dont want to damage the engine further by driving it, but I'm not sure if I'll have a way other than that to get it in... I dont have the money to tow it. so, I'm about broke, and I'm about truckless. yay..fun..hoowa.. shoot my now so I wont shit myself from the excitement. I already felt stupid(I mean really really stupid) about not paying attention to the oil gauge, but then when I got home, athena and sophie proceeded to begin to talk about it, trying to deduce what broke. I know they didn't mean to, but when I told athena about it, and her and sophie began talking about it, it made me feel ten times worse. but, oh well. I went to sleep FINALLY. and could care less about the world until I awoke. this is how my month has been. one thing after another, each slightly worse than the last. although thanksgiving was alright. and I had tried to talk to Fiona on her birthday, to no avail. and I spoke with my buddy doug, which was really neat. I'm just having troubles, and I feel like I've been fighting an uphill battle on ice. it will hopefully pass. bah. I've bitched enough I suppose, its all my own fault, so I shouldn't be too upset. but I'm done for now. -Owen Current Mood:  cynical | | Saturday, October 28th, 2006 | | 2:00 pm |
hm..?
yeah, I'm still alive. just been real dissappointed in myself for missing class the last two weeks.. my only class... I've not been sleeping well, so I've not been getting up on time. so, I've been waking up at like, 11:30a or 12:30p or 1:30p, because I've not gone to bed until 3a, 4a, 5am....................... yeah... this is not what I had worked so fuckin hard to accomplish... I was doing great... then I screwed up. but, it happens. so, I'm attempting to correct it. anyway.. still alive. still at fuckin mykle's. still hating it. I'm tired of all these bullshit routines that never work for me. I need to do something different. and.. I have a test on tuesday.. and here I am... having missed class for the last two weeks.. at least I've been studying the book. not that I think it is going to save me. I want to pass this class, and I want to continue to attend the class.. but I can't do it if I'm not going to bed by 1am at the latest.. fuckity damn. anyway. I'm out.. gotta work this bs job. -Owen. Current Mood:  cranky | | Friday, September 15th, 2006 | | 2:53 pm |
that feeling...
well, I get this feeling, and I wonder to myself, if anyone else gets it. these last 4 or 5 months or so, just seem like a giant cluster-fuck.. and I'm not too keen on those.. if you didn't already know. anyway, I'm alive. feel more confused than I've ever felt before. and, well.. I hit an ermet last night.. it was accidental.. I saw it running across the road... I tried to swerve a little to not hit it, but it stopped in the road.. so, its not entirely my fault. partially, because, had I not swerved I would have not hit it. though, since I was unsure of its actions, I attempted evasive maneuvers. and it wasn't very smart of it anyway... crossing in front of a vehicle, and stopping in the headlights. I had already adjusted by the moment it had stopped. oops.. well, I'm sorry I hit it. it wasn't supposed to stop like that. oh well. enough said. -owen Current Mood:  dirty | | Saturday, August 26th, 2006 | | 1:53 am |
--hmmmm....--
well, I enrolled in KPC. I'm only going to take one class.. this semester.. I need to do a lot of reviewing and studying so that I wont have to be stuck in the moderatly retarded classes next semester. I'm going to take an almost entirely irrelevant class that might be practical.. Anthropological Linguistics... or the study of human language. I've always found how we speak to be kind of interesting. I've been doing a lot of studio(okay, maybe not 'a lot', but some!) work with the band, and we're working on an album. I'm still currently working for Mykel's, but I am still seeking other employment. I'm thinkin about the brew shop out north or the pro-hockey shop in the sports center. thats here and there.. anyway, just wanted to drop a line to know I'm alive. -O~N. Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: silence | | Thursday, August 3rd, 2006 | | 8:47 pm |
a home away from home.
so, eventually.............................. ........................................ .......... ........................................ ........................................ .......... ........................................ ........................................ .......... ........................................ ........................................ .......... ...................I might get to the point. now, I've been thinking about things I love to do, and in fact, have been doing some of them. I'm looking for a new job(yet again), and, I DO NOT WANT TO WORK IN A DAMNED KITCHEN! I've done this long enough. yeah, might come back to it one day, but now is not the time. even though, at the moment, I'm working back at Mykel's. but this is only until the end of the summer. I need to get my ass in gear, and figure out what it is I want to do with my life. problems being: 1) I've no clue what my calling is. 2) I'm running out of time 3) I've no idea where to begin 4) I'm entirely too good at procrastinating. they say the best way to know the future is to invent it. and your calling is something you've always done. my mind is so frustrated, I'm so frustrated, my soul is screaming from the top of its lungs, and everyone I see, save the few who know me well, have been giving me dirty looks. ack.... well... I'm gonna go now... I'm just a little frustrated... thats all. later. Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: carlos mencia show | | Sunday, July 16th, 2006 | | 12:52 pm |
hmm...and other things!! ...or some such.
so,.. yeah.. still alive, still kickin. being an influence. for bad or good I'm not sure. I've been delving back into my mind to remember what it is 'I'(bold and italicized) love to do. not just what people say I like to do. the things I love to do. I've begun compiling a list of what I remember so far. I put legos on it as my first thing. fancy that... anyway, I've been attampting to figure things out, yet they are still beyond my grasp. I need to have confidence in myself and know who I am and what it is I truly stand for. and I can't be told. if I have to be told, then I'll never know. ever wonder why introspective journies are the hardest? I know why. they are the hardest because they are the path of truth and no matter what anyone ever thinks, the truth is very, very rarely a nice or pretty thing. in fact its usually quite ugly and mean, but it's not without its upside. that being, the brutal neccessity of trueness. anyway, enough of all that. I'm gonna go do some weird things for the sake of being weird. -Owen. Current Mood: okayCurrent Music: ------- | | Tuesday, June 27th, 2006 | | 9:33 am |
wakka wakka doo doo yeah!!! ...where's my gun?!
well, you know that feeling I had about six months ago? the one where I was fed up with how I was being treated? well.. it turns out, I have no one to blame but myself for it. but thats alright, because I've finally learned the lesson. and that lesson(at least I think...) is: YOU CAN'T ALWAYS BE A NICE GUY! sometimes being an asshole is neccessary. it keeps people in check. if you're nice to everyone, they think they can get away with bullshit constantly. so if I want them to not do that, then I can't always be that nice fellow that I really am at heart. it doesn't mean that I have to always choose to be that way. but, as a person that attempts to always become a better person, I have to be reserved on occasion with my decisions and actions. I'll try to be nice for the majority, but when I KNOW I need to be an asshole, I'll be careful with my words and actions. I've found that it doesn't matter what I say, but I only get to say it once with influence. so... thats that. and I miss my re. we need to talk. love, peace, and something else..... your choice. -O~N. Current Mood:  contemplativeCurrent Music: Nordic Thunder - The Truth Will Set You Free | | Saturday, June 17th, 2006 | | 4:00 pm |
| | Sunday, June 11th, 2006 | | 2:32 am |
shit shitty shit.
well then, if the subject don't sum it up, then maybe I should explain...? I can't stand some of the things I'm made to endure. and were I in charge, I wouldn't know what ways to change it. you know that saying, "if you see a banana peel, pick it up?" well, I see very few people picking them up, and even more people throwing them in high traffic areas. I have issues I've been dealing with, that only stem from me(my banana peels!), and I've been attempting to root-out and/or adjust the problems. But lately, the universe has been unfolding in such a way as to step upon my head. I've been in this predictament for the last two months or so. I've been improving myself little by little, and trying to encourage self-betterment in everyone I encounter. I've never been one to ask for help, I'd like to think I could, if forced into the situation, be self-reliant. don't get me wrong: just because I think I don't need help, doesn't mean I should be left to go about without it. I won't ask for help, for in my book, there IS harm in asking for it. to me, that means I bit off way more than I can chew. not that my jaw will get any bigger unless I do. Its just that if I can't handle it on my own, then I should not have been attempting it (-without help-). I like help, I've never found a suitable way to obtain it without asking. and this now comes back to the bananas.. I have my peels picked up(and recycled into good soil), but I keep slipping on other people's. and they are in THE MOST inconvenient of areas. its beggining to effect my sanity. now, understandably, in a lot of respects(and on ventures into new areas), I was fore-warned of some of these peels left by other people. But my question becomes: INSTEAD OF TELLING ME ABOUT A POTENTIAL RISK, WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST PICK IT UP?! because it wasn't your peel? because you don't feel up to the task? because you want to pretend it aint your problem? well let me tell you, even if all of the above is true, EVENTUALLY you or someone ELSE, is gonna step right on to that peel, and get HURT. if not, then it will rot and fester until it causes other adverse effects. now please understand I have nothing against bananas, in fact I like them quite dearly. in this trip of the mind, they are an analogy for problems, idiosynchracies, and ignorance. its just lately, I've run into these everywhere, and its really rubbing on my nerves. encourage good questions, ideas, behavior, and research. discourage ignorance, misinformation, foolishness, and unfulfillable words. anyway, I'm out. g'night. Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: blissful SILENCE. | | Saturday, May 27th, 2006 | | 3:06 pm |
somewhere between Art and Engineering...
well, lately I've had this very odd feeling... the feeling is that I've done all this before. and the feeling is correct. I have.. just upon a dream... funny that. Deja-Vu has been rampant in my life(we all have it occasionally) and head as of late.. and not just part-time.. its been constant and on-going... for nearly three weeks now... its a bit un-nerving... but it isn't quite a bad thing. just odd, thats all. anyway, to get to the point: I've been working over at Kenai Landing/Sockeye's Restraunt&Bar as a cook. most of the ideas that I've brought to the "table" have been well accepted, even though I get the chance daily to make an ass of myself, I've been trying to not over-step my bounds, and not speak out of turn. I guess I can always do better, and I shall. My family threw me a surprise party at the restraunt, and it worked. it was very cool. I went out to have a cigarette, relax and look out at the river, came back in and found my entire family(plus some) sitting in the bar area waiting for me to come out. I got to take an hour or so off to sit and relax with them and eat a piece of cake. it was fun, and I was pleasently surprised. afterward though, I had to go back to work, but that was alright, because we got a bit busy and it worked in our favour. but that was my birthday... I picked up my last check from Mykel's and that was pretty nice. it was a pleasant day to go talk to the people over there. I still care about that place and all the people there, I just don't think I want to ever work there again. I've been collecting a lot of books that people would normally go, "why would I ever need that?!" and it turns out, I will need them. I have some pretty big projects on my to-do list, and not one of them is easy. but I've been working on them, little by little... things like: Clean my room, and reorganize it. Build bookshelves for my room. Make a bed frame and get rid of my old bed. Brace the back deck. Make a rotating compost barrel, and design/make/buy sifting screens for the soil gradients. Help fix the Chrysler 5th Avenue's front end, and give it a tune-up. Help fix and replace the LeBaron's engine and tires to sell it. Plot out, dig out, and lay down foundation for Greenhouse/Shed in back-yard. Collect all the building materials for the Foundation and building of the GrnHs/Shed. Design some recipies, and plating techniques for home and work. Utilitarian style. **Find time for the band, and still sleep enough to work productively. **Save money to go to school in the fall semester. thats some of what I've been up to... -O~N. --------------------------------------- "Good-Better-Best, Never let IT rest! Until Good becomes Better, and Better becomes Best!" -North Star Elementery School Motto. | | Thursday, May 18th, 2006 | | 11:40 am |
recurrent synchronicity
well, the last couple of months have been odd. especially this last week. I've quit Mykel's Restraunt, for I guess selfish reasons, none of them good, but its already done, and I've gone and gotten a job with another place. I was going to go work for IGA, but I dont want to work for the wholesale side of the place, the manager of it is a jerk. so I've been doing that, cleaning up my yard, trying to get some other things done with it, but unfortunatly... its difficult all on my own. doin it anyway. anyone had long-lasting DeJa-Vu? Current Mood: okayCurrent Music: astroid collisions in tempo |
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